CHERYLTYHM

March 7

2012-03-07T23:47:00.001+08:00

Almost forgot my blog existed...
Still surviving. :)

february 26

2012-02-26T23:38:00.003+08:00

Sunday spent with mama, aunt, mom and sis at the Peranakan museums. ee, and mom wanted to bring mama over, knowing that she would be interested in it.

Sis and i did the batik painting there.

going back to the roots and getting little story telling from mama.

*****

yet another week.

up early today to go over to the west and run some errands. ~

Consideration

2012-02-24T01:38:00.001+08:00

February 19

2012-02-20T19:55:00.001+08:00

My bloody day...

Woke up with a time of the month.
Went to bed with wounds.

Went for a jog, random thoughts came and went. Couldn't remember what's on my mind when I tripped and fall...

Been so long since my last fall, and as I stood up and continue running again, I thought about the same old saying, it's okay if you fall. What matters is you stand up again. Or something along that line? & it reminded me of netball too.

Anyway the trip happened too fast, before I realized it, im already halfway down.

And as of today, I'm kindda limping.@@

February 14

2012-02-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

"you jump, i jump"

So, after sooo long trying to set a date, free for all... We finally managed to make our way to the titanic exhibition.

A pity we were there late and Jiening had to rush off.

The whole thing is pretty amazing. Yet, feeling a little (like tiny little bit) upset at the end of the day.

Oh yes, for that day, I'm 19 and pregnant. Hahahaha. Figure what I mean.

...but survived.

And for who knows what reason, probably due to the insecurity from the lack of directions, my driving suck that day. Suck so bad, I'm glad we're alive.

Daniel left that night for further studies in Melbourne. Initially felt little upset that two friends are leaving, leaving lesser (secondary school) guy friends around. But nonetheless, they'll be back during the year end. And that upset-ness just disappeared, because somehow, I just know its not that bad. & I'll see them when I see them :)

Alright, that's all for now.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY YOU ALL.x

Hello, Im still alive

2012-02-09T12:27:00.001+08:00

... Btw.

Just haven't been updating.
Peek of this few weeks workspace. (when it's neat)

February 1

2012-02-01T22:45:00.001+08:00

February is here! Seems so fast that a month had passed.

And it kind of upset me that Chinese new year is ending soon. Just the thought that festive season's ending...

I hope this month will be good to me. And it's pretty much a blessing in disguise that I fallen soooo ill the other time, as it goes to mean that I'll not fall sick again anytime soon during this busy months.

Anyway, on our way home,hc shared about his 'love story'. And sometime things can just be so interesting. we concluded that, in a relationship, Someone have to put in the effort, and the other have to reciprocate... Else, matter of time that it wouldn't work out...

Anyway, out of here...

just someone who is easily stressed but bad at handling it. So tonight, Imma avoid it.

January 27

2012-01-28T03:13:00.002+08:00

(no im not posing, just holding my fringe up)

Haven't been here for a while. But i (kindof) reappeared a little in fb.

Before anything else, HAPPY DRAGON YEAR!! :) hopefully a prosperous year! :)

Third of the new year and boom I had to get my bum to work. Zzz. And because of such turn off , the whole Chinese new year mood is alrdy dampen by the second day. Yes, cny is merely like a one-day-feel thing for me this year. @@

And after the Christmas, new year and chinese new year... There's no more public holiday to look forward to. ><

Next thing up, Daniel's departure,on the 12th. Oh how i wish i had the money to go for further studying overseas! I actually applied for it for two year's later intake. And was accepted. Okay anyway, results... On 13feb2011.zzz then chewei'sdeparture.

And, I saw this online... Tell me if it's true. If so, I'll date a guy for four months before any other further commitments to ensure that he's true to me and not temporary infatuation .

January 21

2012-01-22T03:43:00.001+08:00

Last minute shopping today. But not much buy on apparels. Ended up getting a new shelve for my room for more storage!

Ended my night 'working out' carrying the shelve back home and assembling it with the help of Denise! :) four hands, two brains. But we spent hours on it. Customizing so as to try to maximize the use of space. A guy could do a faster job, but we're still awesome! :)

Got another scratch again @@ and probably all the heavy carrying (or what), my back is aching so so badly. I hope it don't give me problem again. Used to have internal backache a lot, and Denise told me to give it a check(because there's possible of it being a symptom of some illness, like kidney failure or something like that. :x)

So long since I last drove ( or so it seems) and there was a heavy downpour, so much so that I freaked out.
But on a happier note! Spot the rainbow (which many saw too), and felt so so glad. :') I couldn't bare to leave the sight of it.

And we drove pass car retail shops; porsche, lamborghini, ferrari, Audi & minicooper!!!*melts* but because I'm driving, I couldn't have a proper look at them. Falling in love with chio cars! (like what I mentioned before; on how I like looking at cars on my way to work, though I don't know anything about it.><)

Alright, blogged about today just because of the rainbow. :p okay, go low again. Goodnight.

January 18

2012-01-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

Poison with poison...

Had more-than-usual chocolate intake this week, I feel that I put on a kilo or two.

Wanted to drag myself out for a late run today...but I recalled how I wasn't allowed to do so when I'm coughing. So idea's dropped.

Fat die me.

Special

2012-01-15T22:51:00.001+08:00

January 12

2012-01-12T23:49:00.003+08:00

Thursday...
Cough isn't getting any better. And Imma 以毒攻毒 (literal: treat poison with poison) from today on. My logic. ><

***

January 10

2012-01-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

Day two of the start of busy period... I got to survive...

January 8

2012-01-09T00:14:00.001+08:00

...simple boring Sunday...recuperating.

Goodnight.

January 7

2012-01-07T23:47:00.001+08:00

... Day 5 of running a temperature.

So much to worry about today, about school and work. Work especially :/ so nice having colleagues asking about my condition after missing work for so long.

...Aftermath of fever had caused me to do stupid things. Pfft.

Yet another POP day, so many friends involved in today's. Congrats y'all :)

Alright. Discomfort kicking in. Had a really salty cup of star fruit juice just now. Mom said the person put salt to ease my sore throat, but it was sheer torture to finish that cup. Think he/she overdid it. Okay outta here.

January 5

2012-01-05T13:22:00.001+08:00

Craving for this.

January 4

2012-01-04T21:53:00.001+08:00

... All the sinful cravings each time I'm sick.

Wanna have some Hawaiian pizza now.
And some sweet drinks. ><

January 3

2012-01-03T11:39:00.001+08:00

... Woke up with a temperature. Dragged myself to work as there's a meeting...

... Feel like going home for a rest. But trying to hang in there.pfft.

ps. Craving for that porridge with potatoes and sausages...

January 2

2012-01-02T23:47:00.002+08:00

Goodnight!

Ps. I think I'm falling sick... Grr.

brilliant or what?!pfft.

2012-01-02T17:25:00.001+08:00

... I'm enjoying the holiday, free&easy lifestyle....back to reality tomorrow.

Polaroids for today.

Greetings...

2012-01-01T03:26:00.001+08:00

Happy new year everyone... May twenty twelve be a better year! <3 ;)

-

2011-12-29T13:30:00.007+08:00

wanted to do an update of day to day... but the idea was dropped when i picked my phone up to look through the pictures...like mentioned, i do not know where to start... and so i tried typing out some highlights for the past two months,(Which i did typed...) but halfway through, i dropped the idea too.(..., and deleted @@)

is that why its said that Gemini changes their mind fast?

typed and backspaced;so maybe its not only because i do not know where to start, but i also do not know whether or not i want to.

I say you say

2011-12-28T23:07:00.003+08:00

...for you.

Bla

2011-12-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

Put on weight during the exam period and hasn't lose it away. So annoyed!! And I can't bring myself to start exercising again, because I'm tired and lazy. Hate how I always ended up eating so much while studying, such way of avoiding the books.

A little out of mind lately. Bare with me. Let me rant a little.

*****
4-days work week.new year.3-days work week.training.and busy period for work all the way till April.

That's the first few months of my 2012. It's back to back engagements (I.e projects) till April. Late nights, backaches, stress... Are all gonna find their way to me. Slowly but surely.

And starting May till June its time to start mugging for exams...

Doesn't it sound fast?
Last paper on 14june, and next day I'm 21 years old?!?! Tiew.

<3

2011-12-27T22:27:00.001+08:00

Doesn't make a guy perfect perfect... But still... ....

Gemini

2011-12-27T21:46:00.001+08:00

... So there was this day when I was walking around town with denise, and she gave me a hello kitty spec, which she bought for herself and I...

... As we were having our honey stick...doing a little shopping for our 'little baby' birthday... she laughed thinking how our similiar-pattern will appear to others.

And it's funny how we think alike.scary incident where Aqi bought earrings for us from bangkok. And we had to choose what we wanted out of about 10 choices...and we short listed three exact same ones?!

Okay... Somehow, in a 'noisy mode' now.

Greetings...

2011-12-25T16:34:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas! ;)

loved you for a thousand years

2011-12-24T03:10:00.001+08:00

peaceout,

2011

2011-12-24T00:33:00.011+08:00

It had been quite some time since i last switched my laptop on; had been (for some unknown reason) reluctant to hit the button. avoiding it, it ultimately ended up under a pile of notes and random stuffs...

... used the company's laptop for the past months that my personal laptop screen seems so small now. decided to turn it on, because its nearing the end of 2011, and
time again to do a posting on this year.

******

And so, now, Highlights in my 2011. with random selection of pictures from previous posts.

January;

welcomed the new member of our family, Baby Mikayla.

Bundle of joy.

February;

first CNY visiting with the girlfriends,

Guess nothing much had happened till Poly life came to an end, last day of school in Ngee Ann.

Audit lessons; "no exception noted", here i am today, doing auditing.

March;

After battling with exams, got back to work at Icekimo which i kindda started in Jan'11.

So, lots of plans with the poly people in March, one meet up after another, Hotel & Chalet... Prawning and Movies...

and somewhere towards the back of march to beginning of April;

Phuket trip.

how much i miss the slow-paced living and food there. walking under the rain earlier today, reminded me of our first day there, drenched.

soon after, Hongkong with the secondary peeps. ~~just some how or rather, we didnt have a group picture together.~~

(ps. lost my hoody, somewhere in the house, i do not know where. :( )

then later, annual family trip to taiwan...

yet another drenched day.

i miss my short fringe.

that's the end of all the travelling.

at the end of it, its may...

graduation! officially Diploma Graduate.

till June, simple dinner dates & hangouts... such bliss without any commitments.

and celebrations...

blessed with awesome girlfriends :')

... turned 20. got into a relationship again...

oh, It was a TCC-ed birthday. had it with Kokping, and also with the poly girls (which i do not have any pictures as yvonne memory card spoilt :( ) with pink and white gifts which i had faithfully been using ever since. (though i previously ditched the pink one for months)

July, i started taking ACCA classes, and the fear of examinations kept haunting me...

with dates with the boy, and random occasional studying with the girlfriends. and it continues...

...till August, more studying, as the boy got enlisted, phonecalls almost every night. and working at Icekimo. Had been a simple yet blissful month.

September, i got into the working society... which made my life so mundane, like a tape on replay.first D&D.

October,

To kokping's POP, such a-goosebumps-experience. glad he made it through (of course he would, i meant healthily) ;)

rest of october were full of work, and...school...stress and screwing up things, losing myself and finding myself.

November ;worked and intensive studying with the girlfriends. started revision late, and yet still trying to face it despite the stress and urge of ignoring.

December ; seems to had came and left. before i know it, its the end of december. Had my exams at Expo, prolly screwed it. Back to work right after exams. not in the mood for festive season yet. Had a BBQ, with the secondary people, meeting up with guys&zengni. Random meet up with the others.

*****

looking through the post i did almost a year ago...

(extracted):

"and now its 2011... do not know what is ahead of me, but i guess nature will take its course, and, i shall take things as it comes...
hopefully, in this year, i will...
~~as much as im enjoying singlehood, i will, open up my heart more, and love again.~~
lose some weight, which i manage to do so,during my internship, and gain it all back oversea. so key thing in 2011, is to lose and maintain. -alright, so i did lose, but i gained a little during exam period, and still, had not lose it :/
~~yes, its time for graduation (if i manage to pass through this semester smoothly!!!!), prolly get a place in uni/ACCA, and start working.~~
~~learn to be more independent financially.~~
improve on my english. - hard to access(?)
~~be discipline enough to do well for my final exams in NP.~~
~~be a better granddaughter, daughter, niece, sister, cousin, friend.~~-self proclaimed.
fingers xx-ed

i wish you would have a great 2011.
as much as i wish i would have a great one too "

***
All in all, 2011 had been pretty awesome. apart for the last few months, where stress, and unhappiness kicked in. All the risk i went through, all the experiences and story shared were amazing.

Beginning of year was alright, April to May were full of excitement, relaxation, laughter and smiles. June to September were plain bliss, no stress, just dates, meet up, and enjoying life in Singapore with the company of the loved ones. September was the start of a turning point in my life... October made things difficult for me. But slowly, here i am today... at the end of December. No regrets made. mixed feelings as i bring myself through this year.

So much to remember.

It seems to had passed so fast...

2012; is gonna bring me lots of stress, no doubt in that. life is going to be sooo different. i just know it, because work is already waiting for me.

in this coming year, i hope for a great BGR. (no, still not a risk taker). turning 21, start of taking responsibility of my own life. balance between work and studies, hopefully last through 2012 without giving up on any. have my friends around me, to still stay around me in the coming year. >.<

***

To the girlfriends, Thanks for everything, for the company and encouragement and everything else. To any other who had been there when i needed someone, thank you. and to everyone who had been part of my 2011! ;) (the poly peeps, Sk, Zengni, daniel, Ben, Rio, Chewei, Wenjia...) & to CKP, thanks for lending a shoulder and a hand, being a listening ear, encouraging, reminding and giving me security, love & care. ;) please, still be there like how you used to ever since those schooling days. if so, i'll be mutual about that ;) & to my family who had been there ever since day 1, though now, each of us get busy with our life.

with much love.

***

2012, please be good. you really need to. Tyvm.

Have a good year ahead too. HAPPY 2012, & merry christmas!!!

2011-12-23T00:13:00.001+08:00

yay to work-free Friday ;)

Blog about 2011 soon.

...

2011-12-22T18:30:00.001+08:00

where you go...

2011-12-20T15:39:00.005+08:00

i miss you so ;)

Hello, it had been some time since i used the laptop to type something and post it up. a really ultra mega long time because i had been using my iphone to do all the ~~'updates'~~ rantings. havent been doing a proper day-to-day update for at least 2 months. initially stopped because i didnt have the mood. but it took some time for my mood to be recovered that i do not know how to start off again.

so...Life's... fine.

Was busy with examinations, which, i think, is kind of screwed. but for once, i decide to hold on some hope that i will pass. because i never felt so hardworking before. (minus the fact that i started revision late because i screwed my emotions up ><). and given that people around me thinks im able to make it, i wish i could too. fingers xx-ed.
~~busy with work~~ not really busy with work now, till, next week. short week this week for me! ;)

and, December is here, oh how time flies. emotions' almost like that year, but slightly better. :). friends are out of singapore and here i am in my office. Couldnt join Jiening&jocelyn at HK because i do not know how mom would react if i told her that i want to go (for the second time this year). Aqillah's in BKK (which i almost went in June with the poly peeps),Deborah's in Taiwan and Shilin's some where in China. alright, let me be glad that im not stuck in camp like the guys. ;)

Season to be jolly-so it supposed to be
christmas season around the corner, and this year's christmas wouldnt be of much different (i assume)... and comes after christmas is the new year.

~~2012, turns twenty-one, i assume more responsibility, at work and on my own personal life. and yes, i will still have to study.~~ dont feel good saying all these familiar words.
I wish for a good,happy year, and things to go the way i want to (HAHAHA) . recalling about 'new year resolutions' - BFF decided that i should find myself a boyf, and cut down on clubs in 2011.

and back to these days...
...time of the month, lots of moodswing. :x seems to be a recent symptom which didnt used to be that bad before i started working.
oh well, blogging bug left, till then...

once upon a time, you are everything i ever wanted... >.<

2011-12-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today's not a good day. Probably partially due to Pms. (yet again) seems like quite some time I've been sooo down.

Realized I officially dislike the look of -.-
probably because of influence? Like ;) or... I have no other reason why. Oh whatever.

Back to work tomorrow. :'(

those were the days when I could sleep at 3,4 o'clock and being chased to bed.
Today's a bad day, period. Goodnight

Special feeling...

2011-12-18T13:15:00.001+08:00

...only possible from someone special :)

Roles switched.

Another hormonal changing moment

2011-12-13T23:34:00.001+08:00

Probably...

So much for happy post in the evening. I jinxed it. Because I came home with a face long enough to sweep the floor. (i meant unhappy, and not literally long)

Low profiling

2011-12-13T16:44:00.001+08:00

Happy post because exams's over. Feel like a burden off me. A little 'freetime' before stress from work starts pouring in... '' because work starts the next day after exams.

Back to high heels, office wear, early mornings, crowded trains, busy streets~ welcome to my life. -though im not the only one going through this

And happy post because, (I don't know?) happiness flow in after taking things less hard on yourself..

(but no,doesn't mean my exams are allowed to be screwedup! Im only asking for a pass, pretty please~~)

Charming eyes

2011-12-11T23:18:00.001+08:00

...& innocent look.

2011-12-10T03:15:00.001+08:00

you left me speechless...

Be happy

2011-12-09T05:46:00.001+08:00

There are times when ~~you~~ i seems to be emotionally imbalance and times where everything seems so fine. Times where i reminisce and times when I think about the future. Times when you say good morning, and I'll say good night. ^^

2011-12-08T02:05:00.001+08:00

...Don't get me wrong. Some of these things, it don't mean much... :)

Unfinished business

2011-12-06T02:33:00.002+08:00

such familiar words :)

When I needed most

2011-12-05T01:03:00.001+08:00

Never be the same again

2011-12-03T04:37:00.004+08:00

But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.

***
Bring me to where we like to hang out together

2011-12-02T22:21:00.001+08:00

almost forgotten

Am still here

2011-11-29T19:47:00.005+08:00

in such agony, struggling

The insanes

2011-11-28T02:34:00.001+08:00

... The ones who would be unhappy when i couldnt do so. The one who see the whole picture...yet letting me on with my decision...

***

Crazily long time since the three of us last hang out together. So long that I barely remember the last time. & glad to see how much they are already in love. :')

2011-11-26T03:03:00.001+08:00

Need that massage really really really badly... And my Shoulder's aching after carrying my 4.9kg bag around yesterday. ._.

I feel so stiff and uncomfy now :(

You and I

2011-11-26T00:37:00.002+08:00

A pretty amazing night. Been a crazily long time since I last saw a vast sky full of stars. (But it's missing the moon...) Which reminded me I always wanted to ask x (which i always forgot to) what x wanted to say about the three stars in a straight line about.(haven't seen it ever since, till today)

***

A night breeze would really do right now.

Instead, I took a detour drive to my destination. Sitting in the car as I'm typing this.

Only you

2011-11-25T15:20:00.001+08:00

Little time for self for an hour or two on a Friday afternoon.

Burns

2011-11-25T12:35:00.001+08:00

sudden attachment to this song

Addicted

2011-11-23T15:51:00.001+08:00

youknowit

As long as we got love

2011-11-22T18:31:00.001+08:00

blink your eyes and here we are.

Retail therapy

2011-11-21T20:32:00.001+08:00

...haven't been controlling my spending.

impulsive (or not). Hmm... ...

2011-11-21T15:06:00.001+08:00

Seriously, not the right time to let me chance upon such a thing.

2011-11-20T12:22:00.003+08:00

I realized and am taking it in

Sunday is here

2011-11-20T11:23:00.003+08:00

... Thought I could finally have a good long sleep. But it ended up a bad sleep. And I'm up way earlier than expected.

Happy 20112011 to you.

如果超人会飞

2011-11-20T01:32:00.004+08:00

再给我多一点点时间 :)
Don't forget

Walking zombie

2011-11-19T12:56:00.004+08:00

I don't really know how crappy I actually look, so many people telling me that I looked tired.

Saturdays and early morning don't go hand in hand, but this morning it did.

for you, I sacrificed my night sleep. You owe me. :/

那些年...

2011-11-18T17:54:00.003+08:00

"那些年错过的大雨, 那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你　拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界 ,到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
那些年错过的大雨, 那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星,平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你
紧紧抱着你"

And, he's sooooo cute ><

暧昧的时候是最开心，甜蜜的

:D

2011-11-18T17:31:00.003+08:00

Ended work early today!
Hello to my weekends! I miss you.

I need to breathe. ~~

gonna be a good night.~

Red puma jacket...

2011-11-16T14:25:00.003+08:00

... Been some time since I last put you on.

& Been some time since I last dressed down.

2011-11-15T20:39:00.001+08:00

"I feel good! La la la la la la la ~~~"

Emo.not.

2011-11-15T19:47:00.001+08:00

conflicting thoughts...

And how it always go like, "...aiya, 你不懂的啦＂...

... ＂多的是，你不知道的事＂

P/s it feel like Friday today, and I don't like that feeling. (o_o)
P/s/s I missing running. Haven't done so for so long so long.........

Me / We

2011-11-14T22:51:00.002+08:00

You+me; Complicated series of almost interaction.

So long since...

2011-11-14T22:35:00.001+08:00

...
I cooked myself something to eat.(plus the washing...) & watch the tv... And so long since...

...
Though, I didn't finish my food. & was cooking while the show I want to watch was going on ... And though...

Flies

2011-11-14T09:23:00.001+08:00

...& time

" ...只是不小心拥抱着..."

:[

2011-11-14T00:54:00.001+08:00

Realized that I can't handle stress and Pms both at the same time. I'll lose myself and act like an insane or emo bitch. Remedy to that is welcome.

Someone like you

2011-11-13T18:41:00.001+08:00

On a rainy Sunday night... ...

Lose all that I felt at that point of agreement...

At a junction

2011-11-13T14:39:00.003+08:00

...with no rights to make my choice.

recalled how irritated I was, trying to find my way over and someone said 'trust me' . And recall how we usually share our food. :)

2011-11-12T20:38:00.003+08:00

There are choices.

idon'tlike...

who you think you are,running round leaving scars

2011-11-12T03:12:00.001+08:00

Here to do a short post because denise requested for posts to keep her entertained.

And so as I was saying, Jiening thinks that im turning into a kpop freak, which I doubt I am , think I'm pretty selective, mainly taeyang and rain's. And just in case you don't know, taeyang-wedding dress, English version is the bomb; though I intentionally not hear it for the longest time, i still think its awesome.

Alright, shall not talk about it.

And talking about 11.11.11.
And the hooha about 11.11.11 at 11:11am/pm. I missed it both. And surprising happenings?! The only surprise I was wishing did not happen, but another came looking for me. @@

2011-11-11T22:56:00.001+08:00

Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla
:(

I want to chill somewhere; enjoy the peaceful night and company. Somewhere near the water, with the stars and wind. You know it.

Love story

2011-11-11T12:25:00.001+08:00

The song I mentioned ;)

English version.

It's so funny because Jiening thinks I'm becoming a kpop freak after posting a taeyang video on facebook. And look at his dance. ^^

No, im not a kpop fan. (better not speak too soon) Not yet, maybe.
Though I used to wonder why anyone will listen to kpop not knowing what the words are. hmmm~

2011-11-11T00:43:00.001+08:00

Got to bed 40minutes ago. But I couldn't get to sleep though im so tired.

Mind is filled with stuff and stomach is aching badly...

So since its after midnight,and many are at the topic of it's 111111, no doubt a special day...

And so it's also TGIF. It's still gonna be a normal day -for me - if there isn't anything special happening (no matter how small that special moment may be; still special) >.< Im dead beat.

I...need some rest. ~~this~~ yesterday morning, I wished I would (for no reason) faint and be hospitalized. Despite my hospital-phobia. (forgot about the expenses part). Ahh out of here

Moon

2011-11-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

... Beautiful one tonight. With lots of clouds surrounding it. >.<

Had been having a bad headache since this evening. And I ~~found~~ chance upon another song by rain. Post it up tomorrow because I think I should sleep now. I know rain songs are really old already, I'm aware that I'm slow.

;(

2011-11-08T22:06:00.008+08:00

Damn, feels like an ulcer is on its way. Hate it. I hope im wrong. Which make me realize that I hasnt been hydrating myself with much (plain) water these days.
>.<

P.S I wanna watch a movie. I wanna... Have a short getaway.

****
'signing out' for the night ;
Posting so much today to keep myself awake. Finally gotten in bed but deprived myself from 35 minutes of sleep by using my phone.zzz

P.P.S saw girl friends commenting about getting call, or about hoping Boyf is well in tekong. And it reminded me that those were my days, keeping hand phone close to me, waiting and ensuring not to miss the call. Hoping that all is well in there. One month since the POP! ;)

goodnight. This weird place of my body is hurting. I do not know what is it called because its not a stomachache, but somewhere there. I should sleep alllllll the pain and misery away. My body better not fail me. Ciaoz. <3

我很累

2011-11-08T15:49:00.002+08:00

Tired die me.I literally pulled myself out of bed this morning. My eyelids weigh tons. So much so that I left home in my spectacles.

Feels so long since I last got to work, 4days to be exact.

Blah. Trying to stay focus, but the thought of me getting home to sleep is way more attractive.

Need to master the skill of sleeping with eyes open-alright, I don't even think it's possible. I could only pretend to be listening in class, but in fact my mind had wandered so far so far away.

This is torturing.

*****
So anyway, two more friends enlisting today. :)

Rain

2011-11-08T08:53:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired; 4 hours of (uninterupted) sleep and it need to last me the whole of this long day. And, It's 8nov already...

On a random sidenote, my birthday came out in 4D! Not that I had been buying anyway, but still... was helping Jiawen to check his buys and '1506' caught my attention.oh, &his hp number (9876; so nice right?) was one of the top number, but not within his buy.

& anyway, Since sis is out of town, I have the whole bed to myself! Whahaha.

~~Alright. Out of here for now.~~

Raining at raffles; light droplets, heavy rain.

Just as I took the above picture, "it's raining" by rain played on my itouch.
Not that I listen to Korean songs often, because I do not understand what are they singing, but anyway I chance upon "only you" by rain. And somehow I liked the song pretty much.why did I fail to realized how cute he look. :x

guess its about this guy, liking this girl but all the girl see is another guy; such a sad thing, seeing the one you like liking someone else.

The chorus's translation;

"In your tears, In your heart, In your words
I know they’re only filled with that person
In my eyes, In my mind, it’s only you.
I can’t stop looking towards you
In your memories, A part of my heart in your diary
I want them to be filled with me
My days, my heart is filled with only you
Please look at my heart Oh~Oh~"

That reminded me of the saying, you know, about, what you had been looking for is actually around you all this while, but you do not realize it? Or something along that line, someone told me about it.

孤独比拥抱跟真实

Easy come, easy go

2011-11-07T23:04:00.008+08:00

Late last night, my sis came home to pack her luggage for HongKong, like a busy bee going from one corner of the house to another, asking parents and I for this and that...

And it reminded me that almost 7months ago, I was in her shoes (minus the part where I asked parents for this and that, sis's more complicated). How time flies... There I was enjoying life and companies. And here I am today, all in a mess.

And, she was left with only an hour of sleep. likewise, I recall myself with only an hour of sleep, & received a "something new" text. I was so tired that I slept throughout the whole plane ride there. And wide awake on the plane ride back wondering about stuff which I shouldn't even think about.

Great happy memories.
greatdividedtree
＂我以为我出现的时间刚好.也许是我太过天真，以为奇迹会发生"

Addiction

2011-11-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

Resisting every urge to get back to my addiction. I think I need a rehab.

NSF

2011-11-06T19:03:00.003+08:00

Ditched my books for the night, and brought myself to the east.

*****

I realized, when guys at my age meets another guy, it's stories about national service; and it goes on and on and on~ phrase of growing up eh?

At least im able to catch a little ball now~ >.<

they say, relationships are friendship set on fire. What's your say.

Reminisce

2011-11-06T02:40:00.004+08:00

... Randomly, out of no where, I'm missing days in Taiwan. With late night shopping just across the road. Bubble teas, and snacks, how much I miss 士林夜市. The excitement in heading back to the room to use the wifi to text ... Laying beneath the comfy blanket and resting on the fluffy pillow. Waking up to long nice texts.

And knowing there are people looking forward to my return...i felt...

Those were the days... Happy&carefree.no work, no examinations, no worries, no unhappiness & stress. Just plain simplicity of bliss. Bring it back...

Rainy night

2011-11-06T00:04:00.003+08:00

~~maybe not anymore.~~ it is, again. Blah.

... With love,

-拍拍我的头，说你好吗?~

I...

2011-11-05T20:04:00.001+08:00

Need a massage. Pretty badly.

Drivers seat

2011-11-05T00:37:00.001+08:00

... Haven't been driving ever since ... A really long time... Back home from a filling steamboat buffet at crystal jade with Denise and Jiening...

Wanted to try studying at home, but i ended up heading out.

(avoiding because of fear and stress. I thought its abnormal since there are people who work better under stress, but on second thoughts, no. -it's normal- It's like stressing someone and they push you away- denise overhead a conversation (today) that the lady stressed the Boyf up & they broke up @@ while the other lady is telling how glad she is as the fortune teller said she's a perfect match with her Boyf)

****
Just had a drive... And got to the bird-shit-carpark. Some time since a picture of me;

So fine

2011-11-04T23:13:00.004+08:00

FYI, despite all my not-so-happy-sounding posts(& inactive-ness in fb), I am doing fine in life. :D ohh, Apart from that pushing-away-my-studies-part. and the part where I think my money is depleting way too fast! :/

Just so happen that I do not talk about other happenings in life. But instead on random thoughts that comes to my mind. I need to rant a little, Maybe too much. But I'm so fine. ;) & I was complimented being smiley okay. ^^

Mr know it all;

"Mr know it all
Well you think you know it all
But you don't know a thing at all
Yeah, baby, you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me "

P.s wasted a whole day today. ;(

Victory

2011-11-04T21:17:00.005+08:00

unwilling one. (^(00)^)
I stick with my 'policy' that it's better to be love than to love. I reciprocate (too much) ><

What's up with the slight expectation.

Distance < Love

2011-11-03T23:57:00.005+08:00

I had a little work days and longer weekends for this week! Downside is that my books are dating me out. And I feel obliged to go... ...

did you miss out the point when I said I totally understand.

Boy to man

2011-11-03T10:19:00.004+08:00

Decided to do one posting... Because i read tweets about tekong.Ha! & reminded me that i hasnt blog about the POP. More updates when I feel like it.... Not so soon actually. low for now.

About a month ago...

8oct2011(Saturday)

I attended K.P.Chung's passing out parade. At marina bay floating platform.

Met up with shikang and wenjia at promenade and squeeze through the crowd, up flights of stairs, to the seats under the scorching hot sun, with a view of tall buildings, the river, the helix bridge and the art and science museum.

With the song playing and big company of guys marching in in unison. While texting Zincy who was at the other end, also there for her boyf's POP.

"have you ever wondered,
Why do we serve,
Because we love our land,
And we want it to be free to be free"

And because it's my first time at a passing out parade, and knowing that it was kpchung passing out, I swear, it was really heart warming. To recall the anxiety of getting in, taking my phone and posting 'my boyfriend is officially a nsf' on my Facebook when the clock strike midnight, from every call at night, explanation of the different terms that i know nuts about, random surprise text in the day(& morning), to beach road on weekends, and wearing of his caps, to complains about being tired, and losing weight, to supporting in his tests and ippt and how he endured through all and finally passing out. :)

After the parade, we squeezed our way through millions of people to get to him. And he turned around, with that look and smile. Guy in uniform~

We took a walk through esplanade to have some food at McDonald's.

Went separate ways at the mrt. I was so bored to study, and he dropped a sweet text, thanking me for the presence, as I dragged myself for unproductive studying at Mac.

Went home for a shower and met up with eve and denise for dinner.

Shared ice cream despite having a cough. And they were having cough too. Sharing of ice cream within the sick.

And back home later at night~

Hehehe

2011-11-02T22:10:00.001+08:00

Satisfied my prata craving!! *jump around* and because I'm so hungry, I didnt take any picture. ~

*on my way home*
Blogging on my way home because I'm walking through the factory now, and it's kindda freaky, and my stupid friends had to scare me when we were on our bus ride back. And this is the only distraction or entertainment I can find now.

I had a really fulfilling (& fattening) dinner. I'm too full to sleep now, and it's 29minutues to midnight.

Alright, I'm out of the factory.
If no one knows whats wrong with the factory, actually, nothing's wrong it's just dark,scary and quiet at night.

Aite, till then...

Take a chance on me

2011-11-02T16:39:00.001+08:00

Just heard the song over radio and realized I didn't post this song up here, but instead in Facebook. Was my addiction. you know, how relatable songs are 100 times nicer?

"So when you feel like trying again,
Reach out, take my hand,
So how great it could be,
To fall in love with someone you can trust.

Who would never give up.
Cuz you're all that he needs.
Baby take a chance on me.
Baby take a chance on, oh oh "

Alright, I don't know what's with all this posting of songs. Just that I had been listening to the radio more often now because there are songs in my playlist that I don't wanna hear, (or sick of). And I have yet to turn my laptop on to get new songs. >.<

11111; 1week

2011-11-01T21:48:00.002+08:00

So I managed to dragged myself to school even though I felt so tired. I had 3 hours of company law lessons, and copied 3.5pages full of notes. -sounds so hardworking isnt it.

Truth is far from that; within the first half an hour I was close to falling asleep. Which I kind of did- rest my eyes each time he talk, and opening my eyes to do some copying again. Awaked after a few minutes. Tried following what was taught... Because he handed out the notes for class, but I couldn't figure out if it's recap or a whole new thing that he's talking about. Tried understanding, but within 30minutes of so. I gave up and decided to just copy the notes...

... And for the last 1.5 hours or so, I was self entertaining my inner thoughts and placing more attention on my hand phone than on my copying (but still manage to copy everything). -but I kindda wasted 3hours of my time copying stuff that could be taken online. Still had not catch up the lessons that I had missed last month. :x

I'm so screwed.

& the journey back home... ...don't stop, what you did to me

Best friend

2011-11-01T16:33:00.001+08:00

Another song; best years of our lives

This was my fear (& still is); of losing a best friend.

"Sometimes I wish I could move on,
The memories would all just disappear.

So many things I should've,
Said when I had the chance,
So many times we took it all for granted.

I'd never thought this could ever end,
I'd never thought I'd lose my best friend
Everything is different now,
Can we stop the world from turning?

I'd never thought I'd have to let you go,
I'd Never thought I'd ever feel this low,
I Wish I could go back,
And we'd stop the world from turning."

P.S. I wanna eat. :x I want some prata, bkt, frog porridge (so many people saying they would bring me to try, but I still had not have it),and some Tom yam.

Alright, this stress that I'm trying to push away isn't doing me any good.

By the beach

2011-11-01T00:11:00.002+08:00

Here I am again...

After all the posting yesterday about sky,and night breeze...

On the last day of October, i ditched my book for the whole day.

I stood by east coast later in the evening... Haven't been here for a long time; recalled the last time, everything felt so surreal.

I love how calm the water look, how the ray shone through the clouds, how the breeze felt, how happy couple looks...

... Hi November. October suck so bad, so please be good to me alright? Please slow down, give me time to breathe, enjoy the company of my friends (& as busy family), with sufficient time to date my books and my bed.

*on a random sidenote, I had a dream of a scene at a hospital last night. This morning, waking up feeling a little afraid... Boo. I have hospital-phobia.

Alright. I'm out of here.

such a mixed feeling thing; knowing that is right, yet feeling all the 'could have been'. It's the mind vs heart thing. I'm still fine ;)

This is for the freaky weekend

2011-10-30T22:25:00.005+08:00

Back to the weekends I used to had; but I seems to had lost my independence; & ability to study alone.and so, it's unproductive time > productive time. Each time I study, I'll think 'how to pass?!!'-instead of being more clear, I get blur. And i had not started on the other module. @@

My poly friends and i want to watch 23:59 (army horror movie), but we are all afraid to watch it. Asked the guys to watch together, just a week before their enlistment, but failed.

And, on a random side note, I know I like sunrise and sunset. But I just came to realize Im liking the sky more and more. But as compared to night breeze by the sea, I'll still choose the latter.
Random side note two, realized I have a fetish for guy in uniform :x I don't mean school uniform, you know what I mean. Hee, alright.

Toddling

2011-10-30T01:37:00.001+08:00

I recalled how I used to toddle on my textbook/notes in secondary school. Only to realized that I no longer (or rather, seldom) do so in poly because I'll be using my phone, or toddling others notes.

I probably did toddle then boyf's name as well. Quite funny thinking About it. Secondary is full of great memories; where I meet great people who gives me awesome memories to hold on to.

Met the girls, who I wouldn't trade anything for; pillar of support, love and 'entertainment'. A group of guys, adding joy and laughters to our occasional meet ups. And of course, this handful of people who I went through bumpy rides with...they are still great friends I hope I could keep, though things will not be the same.

Till then...unproductive-but-still-tired me. I barely recalled the last time I felt so uptight regarding school work. It's not a good thing because (i think) I can't work under stress.

如果有一天

2011-10-29T13:22:00.001+08:00

如果你真的爱我,请你记得如果有那么一天请别随便放弃;如果有一天我要转身离开请抱紧我别让我转身;如果有一天我放开你的手请拉住我的手别让我挣脱;如果有一天我不再发信息不再打电话给你了,请发信息打电话给我别让你淡出了我的生活。如果你什么都不做,轻轻地放开我的手,那我就知道你从没爱过我.
-saw it online

Standing at a crossroad.

2011-10-28T18:21:00.002+08:00

Deprived myself from few hours of sleep last night to update my iPhone. Itouch's update is still pending... till I feel like getting in touch with it.

Had a little uncomfort at my elbow today. Afterwhich, accidentally hit my elbow against the table. Now, my joint hurts so bad each time I bend it. And carrying my laptop (from work) out tonight is so not doing me any good. @@

And you know how much internal pain is more annoying than external pain?! Not like I can apply any medication or whatever.

Alright. Till then,

P/s have the urge to cut my hair short again. So, if I ever tell any of you that I feel like cutting my hair. Please, stop me from doing so.

falling too hard

2011-10-27T23:20:00.008+08:00

yet another day that i did not study. i appear to be really stress-free and fearless, deep inside, im dying bit by bit. about a month left... ... ...

*****

just had a conversation with xxx regarding this. and so coincidentally saw this over the web

to you-know-who-you-are, thankyou. ;)

girls (i dont know ifs a majority thing or not); no matter how much you warned yourself to guide your heart, and not fall for words...over time, bit by bit, by the sweetness and charming-ness of the other, you slowly fall in, love. get some assurance and cast the fear away...

and as time goes by, you fall deeper and deeper...

but no one knows what the future hold, isnt it so? sometimes, maybe, things do not work out, but it's too late to turn back time and make things like how it used to be; be it to the time when nothing started, or time to rectify everything.

okay, let me not be bias here, there are still guys who could faithfully love a girl for a really long time, wishing some days that he would stand a chance. or guys who couldnt get over a girl.

******

everyone should listen to this song, it's really nice, but really sad too.

Parachute - Forever and Always

******

there come a time, where anger becomes disappointment.

slowly taking a stand and leave.

Dirty bit

2011-10-26T23:37:00.001+08:00

I had the time of my life, and I never felt this way before. I swear this true and I owe it all to you~~
- by black eye pea

Heard it over the radio~ I'm not home yet, please don't rain. Feels like a Friday/Saturday. Hmm.

***homed***

Yet another raining at (middle of the) night. Goodnight <3